Friday, August 22, 2008
23rd sat Aug: It has been a very dreadful day for me.......As much as i would lke to go out and have fun, i could nt bring myself to have that pleasure. Before that, i had a 6 days of outfield, which lasted like hell. I m nw havin a bad flu and a bad cough. All i ask is that why till this very day, why i cant forget abt my ex. I yearn to go and look for her and every night when i closes my eyes, all my thoughts are filled with her. Why is this so...??
The only reason that is stopping myself from looking up on her is that i dun wan to see her tears falling again and ending up getting hurt from me again. Well, this very moment i m writing this blog, i have drink quite a number of beers, to numb myself from thinking so much of her. Everytime when i get to book-out i dun feel the joy and happiness like the rest of my friends.
I am so confused!!! I guess she may now have gotten in SIM and hope she is having a better like without the likes of me. Nw i hardly talk to girls and even look straight into their eyes. I m afraid of hurting them and that is all i do......I am such an asshole. I am useless. i cant even make keep the girl that i love so much so what more am i qualified to ever fall in love again.....
The only reason that is stopping myself from looking up on her is that i dun wan to see her tears falling again and ending up getting hurt from me again. Well, this very moment i m writing this blog, i have drink quite a number of beers, to numb myself from thinking so much of her. Everytime when i get to book-out i dun feel the joy and happiness like the rest of my friends.
I am so confused!!! I guess she may now have gotten in SIM and hope she is having a better like without the likes of me. Nw i hardly talk to girls and even look straight into their eyes. I m afraid of hurting them and that is all i do......I am such an asshole. I am useless. i cant even make keep the girl that i love so much so what more am i qualified to ever fall in love again.....
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Saturday, August 9, 2008
09 aug sat: It has been a pleasant day for me to spend my NDP at home till 8pm then went out wit my sis and cousin. I think i am getting too much use to the lifestyle of sleeping at 2130hrs and waking up early at 0530hrs. Even so on my saturday. I woke up as early as 0530hrs and brush my teeth and only to realised after that i am actually nt at camp. Silly me!!!
Next week is my fieldcamp week and after that say goodbye to BMTC le!!!
Recenly i have found out abt myself that i can be looking at girls and may want to chase them but do nt want to go through the process of a relationship. But definately nt casual sex for me....
Anyway, CLIFF hereby wish everyone a happy National Day. And definately all the best to those protecting the island of S'pore.
Next week is my fieldcamp week and after that say goodbye to BMTC le!!!
Recenly i have found out abt myself that i can be looking at girls and may want to chase them but do nt want to go through the process of a relationship. But definately nt casual sex for me....
Anyway, CLIFF hereby wish everyone a happy National Day. And definately all the best to those protecting the island of S'pore.
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Saturday, August 2, 2008
03 Aug Sun: Finally one more weekend again.....Time really pass very fast. 3 more weeks to get out from Tekong.
Why I might stay Single....
From nw on i wont have anymore family pressure and will be allowed to pursue my own path in life. Also because i don't think women should be viewed as trophies to be conquered or collected-I believe the best thing men can offer women is friendship founded on honesty and respect first and foremost, and anything else beyond that is a bonus. Loneliness isn't a problem. I'm happy in my own space and skin, and don't really see the need for drastic change.
So if I am perfectly honest, there is a small part of me that envies the couples on the street and wants to believe that the real reason I'm single is what some friendshave told me: "It's simple- you're single because you haven't met the right woman and can't forget the one and only from the Hotel Attachment."
Why I might stay Single....
From nw on i wont have anymore family pressure and will be allowed to pursue my own path in life. Also because i don't think women should be viewed as trophies to be conquered or collected-I believe the best thing men can offer women is friendship founded on honesty and respect first and foremost, and anything else beyond that is a bonus. Loneliness isn't a problem. I'm happy in my own space and skin, and don't really see the need for drastic change.
So if I am perfectly honest, there is a small part of me that envies the couples on the street and wants to believe that the real reason I'm single is what some friendshave told me: "It's simple- you're single because you haven't met the right woman and can't forget the one and only from the Hotel Attachment."
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